Saturday, September 28, 2002

I'm not usually vocal when it comes to matters concerning my relationships. It's not very often that I'm comfortable voicing out what I feel, or what goes on inside my freaky head, that's why most of the time people tend to misinterpret my (mis)behaviour.

It's barely a month since we had a serious talk. It's not really clear to me why we, or rather, I have been in this phase of emotional seclusion. This isn't the first time, though. But that's not the main point. What is clear now is that our relationship is suffering because of that. I tried to talk with her when I was in Bicol but, as I've expected, I felt like talking with a stranger on the other side of the line. It felt weird talking through the cold receiver. It's understandable. I know it's my own fault. It always was. I don't have the guts to talk to her as of the moment because I'm afraid that to do that would mean hearing another unfamiliar cold voice. Or was it just pride? Maybe.

This afternoon, on the way home, I dropped by some bookstore and checked on a certain book. I was browsing on the shelves when I saw a lady who seems strikingly familiar. For a moment I thought I saw her. It felt like one of those scenes in the movie.

God, I really miss her.

... a slice of bob's life.
7:14 AM

Damn! I'm getting way too many pop-ups as I go along editing my blog. First, I changed the account of my YACCS comment link because I wanted a new layout for the box. Well, all I wanted, mainly, was to change the color scheme and have the image match with my new layout. I got what I wanted. But, lo! and behold! It's not opening the way I wanted it to to be.

Second, I think I messed up with my layout when I edited my Blogger template. Now, I not only have one but TWO pop-ups courtesy of my host. Make that three if you happen to access this site via my .tk domain. I'm yet to transfer the blog page to Iva's.

As If these were not enough to complete this mess, my other server seems to be running low on resources as of the moment. It's not Friday 13th but am I getting too unlucky?

Hmmm... There seems to have tangles in the Fates' weaving today. And I'm in the middle of it all.

... a slice of bob's life.
4:37 AM

I feel particularly alive today. Kinda weird. I have always suspected myself to have manic-depressive tendency. I spend a lot of time at home feeling tired but doing nothing, feeling run down. Just like yesterday. There are these times when I feel ultra-irritated, most of the times I would dread hearing even my nephews' and nieces' laughters. These were the times when I get easily annoyed by little incidental things at home. And now I feel energetic and cheerful.

What is wrong with me?

... a slice of bob's life.
3:56 AM

Yes. I'm back to using my blogger account. I wanted to keep the comeent links so I went back to it. I originally wanted to use Iva's free subdomain for me, but I'm having trouble with the FTP setting for my blog so I switched to my topcities acoount instead. Now I have two pop-ups instead of one. Just pardon those annoying pop-ups, will you? I hope I could use Iva's sooner. Now, if only I could fix the settings...*sigh*.

have you noticed how frequently I've been using the word "sigh" in my previous posts? Yeah, I need to extend my vocabulary. Anyway, I think I should fix things up in this webby first.

By the way, I still can't find the control panel in the YACCS website. Everytime I try to logon, I'm being redirected to the homepage. Did the webmaster change his layout or something? ...Or am I just being stupid?

... a slice of bob's life.
3:26 AM

21, September 2002

Site Update

Got a new tagboard account. I wonder if it will have an extended capacity since the old one only had 11 posts in it.

I'll be moving in to another server (again!). Yey! Thanks to my super-generous sponsor-cum-fairy-godmother. Please do visit her.

20, September 2002

Back In Action (Uhmm..sorta)

After almost a week of pseudo-vacation, I'm back here in Bulacan. I arrived so early in the morning but didn't have the time to sleep the whole day. The rest of the family is out on a trip to Baguio to attend my sister-in-law's brother's child (don't ask, I'm also confused.. *grins*). They'd be back by Sunday evening. Finally, matatahimik na din ang bahay. Haha!

I was thinking of the things that I'd be writing when I browsed over some entries in the gwapo forum which caused my lukewarm enthusiasm to take a nosedive. Something irritated me more than anything else. You know that sudden surge of indescribable annoyance? Yeah. So I decided to write about that instead. OR maybe not.

I'd prolly just fix things later. I think I'll just let this hothead of mine to cool down... uhmmm... what were you thinking? NO! Not that head! Aight? Sheesh!

14, September 2002

Updating the Outdated...

Since my trip was postponed until Sunday evening, I've been busy with updating sections of this seemingly complicated website. I'm partly finished (... this is a half-filled/half-empty glass analogy, don't you think?) with the "about" & "profile" pages. All the other pages will follow. If only I have all the time in the world. *sigh*.

What's the problem with the YACCS website ? I've been trying to log-on to the user panel but to no avail. I've been consistently redirected to the main page. *tsk* Seems like it will take more time before I could add a comment link to this blog.

Will i get to be hosted by a very generous fairy godmother? Hmmm... I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Pretty please? ...*grins*

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10, September 2002

Pili Nuts & Bicol Express

I won't be able to log in here for the following days. Reason: I'll be leaving for Bicol! It could be tomorrow or on Thursday. I hope the weather wouldn't be as bad as today's.

Why am I going? Nothing...I just thought I've been awful these past few weeks and decided to take some time out, go to places, etc.. hahaha! HOW I WISH THAT WAS TRUE!! Kidding aside, I'll be securing my goddamn birth certificate cause the NSO (National Statistics Office to those people from the other side of the globe) does not have a record, whatsoever. All this years I've been living the life of a "colorum" haha! That's not my fault, though.

Hmmmm. I can now smell the spicy bicolano cuisine and that yummy pili nuts! eat your hearts out!

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08, September 2002

Code Alpha: The New Beginning
(a.k.a. Viral Battle)

I'm so overwhelmed by the positive remarks I'm getting from all of you guys with this new version. Glad that you liked it the same way that I do. Thanks to all! 

This would be my  first official blog
entry, for this version at least. Still not in the top condition to write, though. Another review session ended and I'm feeling tired from the travel home with that bad weather outside. I forgot to bring my jacket. *tsk* I think I've catched some colds virus. My throat is starting to get itchy and my voice is getting quite harsh (as compared to the usual). Wish it won't get worse.

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I'm sure some of you had trouble using the scrolls of the previous version, so to make things easier I resorted to iframes. *hooray*. These are the things that I still have to do for this version: 

• finish the pages for the other sections

• get comment links

• hunt for a better server (optional)

I still can't think of a way to put comments link in my posts without having to resort to my YACCS account. I'm not sure if the old code/link will work if it will be put in this page. Hmmm. *crosses fingers*. 

Think my new server (sphosting.com) turned out to be a wrong choice for this version. So far, I've already got at least 5 page errors (i.e. pages that can't be displayed, etc.) or was it just my connection? anyways, whichever the cause may be, I hope you guys are not getting those kinds of errors; else I might reconsider moving in to another, hopefully better, server.  That's it for today, err... tonight pala. Got to have some dinner muna.

Errrr.. did I say I'm not in the mood to write?

... a slice of bob's life.
3:15 AM

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